Tuesday, May 10, 2011

So, 10K... We Meet Again

Thanks to a nice little reminder email from the New York Road Runners Association, I was reminded that I have a 10K race to run this weekend.  My immediate response was, "Well, I'm not going to run it..."  Thanks to my disastrous last attempt at running a 10K, I have been taking a bit of a sabbatical from running and have been focusing on getting my exercise in other ways.  I joined a gym and have mostly been biking and swimming.  An elliptical machine was used here or there...

I have jogged maybe once or twice since the last 10K, the most being a 4 mile jog over a week ago.  Do I think I can do the 10K?  Yes.  Do I know if I want to rejoin the world of racing?  Not sure...

Besides the fact that I was exhausted during the last race (due to my error), I also realized how much I hate always being towards the back of the pack.  I'm always in the slow group and its a bit disheartening to watch everyone (including some walkers!) strut past you.  I know I shouldn't compare myself to others, because I know that some people are just naturally faster than others, but its really hard not to.  It's really hard not to feel like a bit of a failure.

But, while one half of me is really adamant about not running, the other half is REALLY excited about doing it.  I wanna see if my cross training will have improved my speed and endurance.  It might be a bit too early to tell, but I can't deny that I'm curious.

The race is Saturday morning, so I guess I still have a few days left to decide.  The final decision will probably be made Friday night at around 10 PM.

Tomorrow is Wednesday, which was when I used to weigh myself.   I had previously mentioned wanting to stay off the scale for a full month, but I will admit that I've peeked a few times just nothing official.   I think I am going to go back to weekly weigh-ins.  I am tired of not seeing the numbers move on the scale, and I think weighing in weekly will hold me more accountable.  So, no matter what the number says tomorrow, be prepared for a weigh in.  I will admit, I'm nervous.  Keeping my fingers crossed that I'm FINALLY out of the 250s!!

Until tomorrow!

1 comment:

  1. Heyyy, Don't be upset about being at the back of the pack. That's my home for now. I know that with time and exercise and running... I will get better. When I started my journey, I used to do one mile in 20 minutes. As of May 1st, my pace was 15:03. It's going to get better. Just compete against yourself, nobody else.

    I hear ya on the weigh ins. Sometimes they suck. I'm not sure what to expect tomorrow. But whatever it is, don't forget its about the journey, not the number. Keep going, you're doing fab!