Saturday, October 29, 2011

Oh hello tour pounds, there you are!!

Um, yeah... So remember how last week I posted a really great number?  That won't be happening this week.


Because this week I seriously ate crap and barely got to the gym.  What was the result?

I'm up 8 pounds from last week. 

Yup, you heard that right.  I am kind of disgusted with myself.  I'm kind of hoping that some of it is water weight because of all the salty crap that I've been eating but I'm not going to count on it.  Instead I'm going to mentally slap myself across the face, stop eating crap and get my ass back to the gym.

Today started my mental reboot and so far, so good.  I went to the hotel gym and put in over an hour, doing both aerobic and strengthening exercises.  I pushed myself and it felt great.  I upped my weights, I added time to the elliptical and afterwards I felt like I had accomplished something.  The interesting thing?  I felt guilty for not doing more.  Like, I think I must have weight gain guilt because I felt like I almost needed to punish myself by doing more at the gym.  Has anyone else experienced this?  Like it wasn't necessarily a positive, motivational feeling...  It was a "it's your fault you're in this predicament and now you must pay for it..." feeling.  Like I felt bad for not doing a full hour on the elliptical.  Hmmm, maybe I should look more into this.

Anyway, I plan on eating better today than yesterday and that's what I need to remember.  I just need to keep in my head the idea of "How can I make today better than yesterday?"  With that thought constantly running through my brain I can't lose, right?

Here's hoping.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Weigh in: 10/22/11

Highest Weight:            310.0
Last Week Weight:       238.4
Current Weight:            235.0
Weight Lost:                     3.4

Total Weight Lost:          75.0

Well, I didn't make it out of the "obese" category yet, but I'm still EXTREMELY happy with where I am.


I just need to be sure to keep this up throughout the tour and I will be WELL on my way to hitting my goal weight by my birthday of next year.  (200 by 6/13/12 y'all!)

We're entering our last weekend of Cleveland and I'm ready to move on.  I feel like we aren't technically on tour yet as we've only been to one city and we've been here for almost three weeks.  Time for our one week engagements where we barely have time to unpack before we are heading off into the great yonder again.

Yesterday was one of those days I think I'm going to look forward to the most while out on tour.  A bunch of us went to the "Christmas Story" house where they filmed the exteriors for the movie.  Then afterwards we went to a cute little cafe that was featured on that show "Diners, Drive-ins and Dives" on the Food Network.  The food was AMAZING and everything was made from scratch, even the bread and hot sauce!    I took some photos of Wembley while we were there, so keep an eye out for an update over there.  It was a day full of the random stuff that you could only find in Cleveland and I hope to find some more of those hidden, tucked away places as we begin to travel from town to town.  Things like the world's largest ball of twine or a cookie in the shape of Jesus...  Something that the town pride's itself on to put it on the map.

Anyway, the next time you hear from me I'll be in Rochester, NY.  'Till then!


Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Obese vs. Overweight

Hi all!

Well, 1+1 still equals 3 evidently!  I'm confused and still not understanding where this weight loss is coming from, but that lack of sense is leading up to potentially big news this week!  I know my official weigh-in won't be until Friday (one week from the one prior) but I may have already peeked at my numbers and my jaw just about hit the floor.

I guess it would be cruel if I kept you in suspense for too long, so I'll go ahead and say that it is a VERY real possibility that I might move out of the "obese" BMI category this week.  When I started this journey 13 months ago and tipped the scales at 310, I was at a startling 39.8 BMI (body mass index for anyone that's confused...)  Now anything over a 30 is considered obese, so being at almost a 40 meant that I was considered severely obese and just barely out of the morbidly obese category. 

Well, this morning at my unofficial weigh in, but current weight puts me at a 30.1 BMI.


But the amazing thing is that I did the calculations and I'm just one pound away from being beneath a 30.

I must admit that I don't necessarily take the BMI chart too seriously.  I know that I'm healthier than probably a lot of people with BMI's in the overweight or hell, even the healthy weight range.  The chart doesn't really take into account muscle mass and considering my legs are quite heavily muscled right now, I know it's not quite accurate.  I've always just used it as another measurement of my success really.  I mean, because even at my goal weight I think I would be in the overweight category, albeit barely.

But even if I don't completely believe the BMI chart to be absolutely accurate I do have to say it will be nice to just be able to call myself "overweight."  Might not mean much to some people, but means a LOT to me!

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Weigh in: 10/15/11

Highest Weight:                     310.0
Last Weight:                          238.2
Current Weight:                     238.4

Total Gain this week:                   .2
Total Weight Lost:                   71.6

Hi everyone!  I haven't forgotten about this blog, I've just been kind of (extremely!!!) busy here of late.  We've been in Cleveland for about a week and a half and have been at the theater almost non-stop.  We started performances here on Tuesday and had our official press opening on Thursday.  With that, there was a whole lot of the creative team in town (directors, designers, New York based management, press, etc.) and these are people that we won't be traveling with so there was a lot of our downtime spent with these people.  And by spending time with them, what does that entail in downtown Cleveland, Ohio? 

Eating and drinking.  A lot of drinking, more like...

I've had more alcohol in the past week and a half than I've probably had in the entire past year.  I've made some not so great choices.  I could most definitely be doing better. 

So, with all of these factors I am very happy to report that I've essentially maintained my weight loss for this week and a half.  I actually didn't have a scale and had to buy one.  I thought I could go without and just weigh myself when I came across one at whatever gym we are using in the various cities but it became apparent quite quickly that was not going to be the case.  I started freaking out about the potential weight gain after about 3 days and finally broke down and bought the scale a couple of days after that. 

Moving forward from here it's about making smarter choices.  Do I need that second drink?  Do I need those french fries?  Do I need to eat after the show?  The answer to all of these questions, is of course... NO.

Now comes the hard part: the execution of this decision.

Wish me luck!!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Weigh in Wednesday 10/5/11

Highest Weight:                310.0
Last Week's Weight:         240.6
Current Weight:                238.2

Current Weight Lost:            2.4
Total Weight Lost:              71.8

Wow, I'm not gonna lie!  I'm a bit surprised to see this loss!  This last week here in NYC has consisted of a few goodbye dinners, a few goodbye drinks, and just generally eating out more because I wasn't staying at my own house.  (My sublet started early, so I was staying with some wonderful and generous friends for the past week.  Thanks Stacia and Lloyd!)

I also didn't go to the gym as much as I had wanted to this last week purely because my time was pretty precious.  Finding time to do laundry was difficult so unfortunately the gym got pushed aside.

So, really when I look at this past week it looks more like a case of 1+1 = 3 because it doesn't really make sense!  Oh well, I won't question it, I suppose!

Today I leave NYC for my tour.  I can't really believe that the day is finally here.  I'm very excited and nervous to be starting this new journey but it has been hard to say goodbye to all of my wonderful friends here in the city.  For those of you who don't live in New York, it kind of is like Sex in the City in that your friends do become your family.  I have always been a person whose friends mean the world to her, but it took on an even deeper meaning once I moved here.

My life journey takes a new, interesting and challenging turn today and I have to face it like I have the other challenges its thrown my way.  I'm sure I'm going to stumble, but it's what I do after the stumble that will matter.  I still have 38.2 pounds to lose until I meet my goal and I plan on making it by next summer!!

I don't know when I'm going to be able to post again.  I have a feeling weigh ins won't be as scheduled as they are now, but I will be sure to keep you guys posted on my progress.  In the mean time, don't forget to check out Wembley's adventures.  He will post something later today!

See you soon Cleveland, Ohio!!