Whatever you want to call it, I decided to get my shit together. (pardon my language, but I gotta be frank about this.)
|As a bridesmaid last March.|
Size 20+ (in denial of being a 22)
So, I did. And I haven't looked back.
I remembered that my sister had lost a good chunk of weight by simply taking walks, so that's what I thought I wanted to do. I had no plans to ever run. I was not a runner. I could never even run a mile.
I had never even attempted to count calories before. Nutrition Facts were just on the side of food to taunt me. I started measuring and weighing and logging everything I ate. And within a matter of days, I saw the pounds start to melt away.
There have been some massive ups and a few downs a long the way. Some lapses in judgement have occurred, but for the most part I've been strong and getting stronger every day. (Physically and Mentally.)
A lot has happened since Labor Day. I have run 2 official races, and my longest jog ever: 5 miles. I got a job, which I like to think I got because my world had found balance. I truly believe that things happen for a reason and when they are meant to happen. I have had far too many examples of that in my life to not believe in fate.
As I sit here writing this, I am 260 pounds. I am the lightest I have been in my adult life (or really since I started paying attention to my weight at the age of 24.) I am a size 16, a size I haven't even ATTEMPTED to fit into since junior year of high school.
|50 pounds lighter. Size 0X(?) top. 16 Jeans.|
But, you know what? While I am happy with the way I look, I still have a ways to go. This isn't even halfway to my goal weight of 200 (remember I'm 6'2"). I started at 310. This is just a stepping stone in my life long journey.
Because when that day comes that I see the number 200 on my scale (because it will happen...) my journey doesn't end there. My life will be my journey at that point, because I won't be letting my weight control my life anymore. I will be controlling it, for probably the first time ever.
I want to thank you all for helping me. You have given me a plethora of support. You have given me strength when I couldn't find it within myself. You guys have helped make this possible.
Here's to life, and no longer being afraid to live.