Hello folks!
Sorry for my brief blog disappearance since the 5K race. I honestly just didn't feel like writing.
Part of that was because I feel like I didn't have much to say.
The main reason though was because last week was a very weird week. For some reason last week, I couldn't stop eating. Some eating was out of boredom, but most was because I was STARVING. Like, all the time... I couldn't satisfy the hunger no matter how hard I tried, and believe me, I tried!
I stepped on the scale as a result and I realized that was a bad move... Not so happy when I see the scale moving in the wrong direction. So discouraging!
This week we are in Memphis and while I'm trying desperately to be good, there is only so good you can be in Memphis. I've had a couple of BBQ sandwiches and I'm sure I'll indulge in fried chicken once, but other than that I'm trying to recharge this week. I need to get my head back in the game! Counting every single calorie that goes in my mouth and exercising 5-6 times a week.
I'm going back to the "Scale-Free" project that I previously tried and failed at miserably. I have decided that I am not going to weigh myself again until the end of the tour. Because it was my act of stepping on the scale after last week's quasi-binge eating that shouldn't have happened. I knew I wouldn't like the number. I knew it would upset me. Yet, I got on that scale and started beating myself up for the slip backward. I shouldn't be doing that. Slip ups are bound to happen, and they are easily correctable if I get right back on track. Of course, this experiment only works if I am indeed strict with myself and don't allow extra non-accidental binges because I'm not tracking my weight. I need to still be strict with myself 99% of the time. That way when I step on that scale again in May, I will hopefully see a number I've never seen before.
In terms of exercise, last week I was pretty good. I've decided I'm going to try and bump up my mileage on one of my runs per week so that when I do start my half marathon training in May I won't feel like I'm completely overwhelmed. My goal is possibly hit the 6 mile mark before training but that's really ambitious. I had 4 milers last week and this week. This week I've slacked off a bit this week and added some extra days off. Not for any good reason, just because I decided I wanted them.
See what I mean? These past couple of weeks have just been off. Couldn't explain why. Maybe I just needed mental reboots like I seem to require every so often. Maybe that's what this is. All I know is that I need to get my butt in gear! I need to stop sitting around wallowing about my failures this week and turn them into positives!
Here's a positive: I'm going to have to retire another pair of jeans because they are just too big. Also, I have the positive that I had a 4 mile run last week and this week. I put on a spring shirt and realized that its a little bit loose now.
All positives. And I'll have more positives soon. Just won't know if I have a scale positive until the middle of May!
Keep your fingers crossed for me!!
I have not been on a weight loss journey nearly as long, so your story is pretty encouraging. I started January 16th this year and in the first two and a half months I have lost 26lbs. I haven't read all of you blogs, so i'm just wondering how you manage to not use a scale. I'm pretty much a slave to my scale. I find my lowest weight is after i have been up for an hour, not right when i wake up. Weird, I know but it works.
ReplyDeleteI have pretty much been a slave to my scale for the past three years and I realized I was weighing myself WAY too much. I was using it as a tool against me (torturing myself after food slip ups, rest days with no exercise, etc.) rather than an instrument of good and encouragement. I'm just going to try and go 6 weeks without it. I don't know if I'll make it, but I just want to give myself a breather to stop beating myself up when I make mistakes. My theory being that I will be on the straight and narrow and if I make a mistake food wise, I will just dust myself off and keep carrying on. The mistake will correct itself over time, rather than me than over compensating to try and immediately correct it.
DeleteCongrats on your weight loss! It's a long and tough road, but it's been well worth it in my book.
Remember, slow and steady wins the race!