Weigh-In Wednesday: 7/6/11

Highest Weight:     310
Last Weight:          242.2
Current Weight:    244.2

Current Gain: 2.0

Total Lost: 65.8

I expected a gain.  I had a huge loss last week, I indulged over the holiday weekend, I didn't work out that much during the holiday weekend, and I binged yesterday.

Yes, that's right.  I binged.

Yesterday was a really bad day.  A combination of a great many things culminating to just make for a really crappy day.  I never really talked about this, but last summer was just one day after another and what would I do to make myself feel better?  I would binge.  I would go to the near by drug store and stock up on a ton of junk food.  Then, I would get home and eat at least half of it.  Those binges were probably anywhere from 3000-5000 (maybe even more...) calories looking back at them.

Yesterday's binge was not NEARLY this bad, but it was a binge none the less.  My binge yesterday was probably close to only 1000.  Granted, I did end up going to the gym yesterday to work off part of it, but it can't erase what I did.  It's been a LONG time since I've had a binge like this and it really disturbs me that I went back to this sort of thinking.  I remember as I was grabbing the food in the store that in my mind I thought "I'm already going to be up on the scale tomorrow because of the holiday, so this won't matter..."  Horrible way of thinking, of course!  I probably would have only been up a pound or so on the scale if it hadn't been for yesterday's binge.

Well, all I know that I'm not going to dwell on my slip up yesterday.  I'm going to start today fresh and on a new page.  I'm going to get back on track and go to the gym this week.  I worked a lot over the holiday weekend and I was just so exhausted to go to the gym.  But, no excuses this week!  My goal this week is to work out 6 out of 7 days.  I need to stay in my calorie range and I hope to see a this gain off the scale next week.

Onward I go!